I am in awe and amazed. I just got my first genital piercing. Not only did I just get my first genital piercing, but I got a triangle.
At A Glance Author Dyzcordia Contact Dyzcordia@bme.anon IAM Dyzcordia When It just happened Artist Maribelle Lebre Studio Stargazer Studios Location Toronto, ON My triangle is rare and beautiful, just like me.
I was really scared going into this piercing. Scared because I had absolutely no idea what to expect sensationwise, but I had heard from many that genital piercing was intense. I have been focusing so much on getting all the oral piercings that I wanted I had gotten used to the feeling of knowing what to expect to some extent (once you have pierced your lips a couple of times, a few more just is not as intimidating), but this was like diving blind into uncharted waters.
One thing that I was not at all scared about was the risk factor. I knew, and had read a lot about, the different risks involved with this piercing (especially were it to be done improperly). But, thankfully, I did not have to worry about any of that because I knew that I could trust the piercer completely with my well being. I cannot even begin to imagine what this experience would have been like if I had not been able to have that kind of faith in the person performing the procedure, I do not think I could have done it under those circumstances and am glad that was not at all an issue.
The fact that the piercer who performed the piercing is my mentor and a beloved friend made the experience that much more special for me (by the end I was just so grateful that I had Maribelle in my life), and maybe a little easier too, definitely easier as I did not feel at all self-conscious about being half naked.
We spent the afternoon together, just hanging out and letting the hours pass, and she made a lovely stir fry to nourish me. When we got close to the time to do the procedure I felt that she understood that I needed to be quiet and center myself, and due to feeling understood I did not feel awkward when I did become quieter then usual.
We had talked about my desire to do this piercing on several occasions. She had been very clear in the past that most women are not able to get it and there would be no guarantee. We had also gone over what aftercare would be like. And, I am sure that over the year or so that I have known her I have asked about a billion questions about this piercing. So, we did not have to deal with any of that right before, which was good for me and made me feel prepared at least in one way.
As I was undressing Maribelle reminded me that there was the possibility that we would not be able to do the piercing. This piercing is one that I have been wanting for years. It is the only genital piercing that I have yearned for (not to say that it is the only one I will ever get). I wanted it because it was one that not many people are able to get, and because I understood it to be physically one of the more challenging ones, and because I have always just really loved the way that it looks, not to mention the appeal of all the different ways that it can stimulate. I have loved this piercing for years and believed that it was meant to be part of me, even before I knew whether or not I would really be able to get it myself. For a moment the fear that I would not be able to have it overrode the fear of what it would feel like.
Maribelle took only moments to check for the spot, after having wiped down the area with betadine (she said that if we could go ahead and do it she wanted the area ready to be marked right away), and told me that it was very well defined and would not be a problem at all. I wanted a double, but she said that there was just not enough room to do a second one safely (so I guess that I will have to think up something else to have done as a mate to my triangle, any suggestions?). I was so scared of just one that I did not know if I could go through with a second, still I was slightly disappointed that I couldn't have a pair. But, I was able to get the triangle I had been waiting for, so the disappointment was only fleeting.
The last few piercings I have gotten I have paid really close attention to every little bit of the procedure, because I am learning to do it myself now, but I did not this time. While Maribelle was opening the packages containing the clamp, jewellery, needle and whatnot I think I might have closed my eyes for a moment. I noticed that my shoulders were really tense and reminded myself that it would be easier if I were relaxed. I tried to focus on keeping my breathing even, but I was really scared and had to tell myself not to back out.
Clamping for the piercing was a bit of a challenge because all of my little bits down there just did not want to cooperate. My clitoral shaft kept rolling and slipping out of the clamp, even causing us to have a single false start with the piercing. That first prick of the needle was not all that painful, and that helped me relax. We laughed together at my uncooperative bits, which also helped me to relax. Before I knew it Maribelle had easily taken care of that little problem and securely captured my bits with the clamp.
I had expected intense stabbing pain. I had been scared of the intensity that I had expected. One deep breath in and with the exhale the needle went through quickly, it was hot and sharp but not at all overwhelming, not at all the challenge I had expected. Even sliding the jewellery into place afterward was not too bad (for me having the jewellery put in after a piercing is usually a little worse then the piercing itself), though I would be lying if I said there was not pain at all.
Maribelle asked me several times if I was doing alright as she put in the jewellery, and afterward too. I became just a little light headed and had to concentrate on my breathing, but was not feeling any discomfort at all (I was waiting for the discomfort, aching, throbbing, something). She made mention of the fact that I had not flinched, cried or screamed and that most do. I just told her it had not been that bad, and asked her if she wanted a picture of it.
I stayed on the table while Maribelle cleaned up, put her tools away and got the camera. There on the table with a new piercing in place, one that I had waited so long for, I felt completely emotionally overwhelmed, almost as though I had shorted a circuit or something. The process had been so much easier then I expected and it made me feel as though that piercing had already been a part of my body in a way, so my body just accepted it.
I feel as though I have assimilated part of me that I had been missing. A feeling that is only strengthened by the lack of discomfort I have felt since the procedure, which was just over 24 hours ago now. There has been some bleeding, which began right away, but even that seems to be tapering off now.
This experience has been a true celebration for me of being me, a wonderful celebration. I am slightly more complete then I was yesterday morning when I woke, and feel a little bit more beautiful.