Secret in my panties

At A Glance Author anonymous Contact anonymous@bme.anon Artist me Studio home Location Australia

I don't even remember when I had my ears pierced. I must have been a toddler. Through out school I always admired nose rings, eye brow rings and other body piercings. I come from a very conservative family and even more than one ear ring is not allowed. I remember when I was about 12 and all my frieds were getting their ears pierced 3 or 4 times, but my mother wouldn't let me. She thought it was ugly.

I used go to many sleep overs where we would talk about all sort of girl things like girls always do. When we started getting a little older, some of the girls would pirce their ears with large nappy pins at the sleepovers. I always wished my mother would let me get a couple of extra earings. We talked about all sort of piercings, but a lot of my frieds thought that piercing anything, but your ears is discusting. I had my doubts about that.

If I wanted a piercing, it had to be somwhere where my parents wouldn't ever find out. Belly button or a nipple are too obvious. They might see these throught my clothes and freak out. It had to be somewhere where only I and any intimate partner would know.

I was only 17, so I knew that so body piercer would do me. I didn't have a fake ID and I probably would have been too scared to use one anyway. I had to either do it my self, or get a friend do it. I went to the the chemist and bought some of the lotion that they put on pierced ears, a small stud (ear type) and a large safety pin. I tucked them away in my secret hiding spot in my room.

It was another 2 or 3 months before my family all went out and I had the house to my self. I had a shower, and I took extra care to make sure that I am clean down there. I cleaned it with the disinfectant loation and sat down in front of a mirror looking where i want the stud to be. I didn't know anyone that had any piercings down there, but my frinds all talked about it once. I though that the small labia would be the easiest and least painful and the easiest to do.

I lied down on the bed and put my towel under me. I knew how to pierce ears with a nappy pin. I was there when some of my friends did it at a birthday sleep over, but that was an ear and it was someone elses.

I took the pin in my right hand and pulled my left lip out with my left. I slowly pushed. It was the most excrusiating pain I felt. I had to stop. I look down, the area I was pushing the pin was throbing and bleeding slightly, but it didn't go right through. I had tears pouring down my cheeks, but I thought, I have to do this. This time I bit my lip and pushed hard. The pin went through, but I was in agony. I just lied there crying in pain with the pin still through. It was so painful, but I did it. Now I had to get the stud through. I put it through straight away (as soon as I stop shaking), because I knew that if I wait I would chiken out. It was so sore that I couldn't even move that night.

My labia were realy sore for a number of weeks. I think it may have been slightly infected. For the first few days I had to wear skirs and no underwear. My left labia was swolen and fat and extremely tender. I kept on putting the sterilizing solution and hoping that it willheal. There is no way that I could go to our family doctor and explain this. After a couple of weeks and constant antiseptic application, it started healing. Then I got my period and the pads just irritated it, but eventually it did heal.

All that time I had to wear loose clothing that wouldn't rub. I was so scared that my mother would suspect something was wrong, but she was preocupied with work. I am now 18 (almost 19) and I am thinking of geting my clit hood done - profesionally. I don't think I could put up with the pain of piercing my self again. Also my clit is quite sensitive and I am afraid I might miss my hood and that would be excrutiating.

What's in my pants is still my secret and my family has no idea. I am still the good girl tthat wouldn't dare "to disfigure her body" as my mother would put it.