Well, I did it. I have been dreaming of it for years and I finally built up the courage today. My friend and I went to Dallas for the weekend and had a blast. We went to Deep Ellum as soon as we arrived and hit the tattoo studios. It was really nice not to be going to the same studios all of the time and seeing the same jewelry over and over. To be honest, they had some of the a few good places there.
At A Glance Author Jessica- The Wallflower Contact HSHornet@aol.com When A month ago Artist IAM Spiderlilly Studio Elm Street Tattooing and Body Piercing Studios Location Deep Ellum- Dallas, Texas After we went out for the night, we came back to our room and crashed for the night. I woke up this morning with an itch. I told my friend to take me back to Deep Ellum NOW. I was going to get my nipples pierced if I could find a female piercer. Nothing was going to stop me this time around. I was dead set on getting it done.
We walked around for right at 2 hours trying to find a female piercer. First off, I am a very self-conscious person because I am overweight and secondly, when I was younger, I was sexually abused. Ever since this happened I have had a problem with trusting people and being confident of myself. It is hard for me to allow someone that I like or love to touch me in an intimate way and even harder to show my body off to some complete stranger. I know that piercers take on their professional role when at work, but still, it is/was hard for me to deal with.
I walked into Elm Street Tattooing and Body Piercing Studios and I talked to Pam, the piercer. I told her that I was wanting to get my nipples pierced and that I wanted them done at either a 12 or 10 ga with circular barbells. I was not interested in CBRs at all, but straight barbells was my next choice. It just so happens that they were out of circular barbells and being that it was the week of Christmas and a Sunday there wasn't much that she could do about getting me some. She told me that she needed to take a look at my breasts so she could tell me what my options would be.
Here it was... The moment I had been dreading. Spiderlilly, Pam, told me to come on in the room. She told me that I could take my pullover off, lift my shirt, and just pull my bra up so my nipples would be showing. As she was turned around getting some measuring instruments out, I slowly started disrobing. I was not happy about doing this, but damnit, these nipples were going to get pierced and they were going to get pierced TODAY! Spiderlilly, turned around and measured my nipples and she told me that I have very large areola, rather small nipples, and large breasts and she felt that the half inch barbells would be my best bet. I agreed with her and I started putting my clothes back on.
We went back into the main area of the studio and she commenced to tell me about the procedure, aftercare, risks, and what to expect. She also told me that she thought I would bleed a considerable amount because I was going to be pierced with a 10 ga. I told her that I was going to get the 10 ga, half inch barbells and get it over with. She said "OK," took my ID, and I filled out my paper work stating everything about my medical history. I remembered my extreme allergy to iodine and I told her and she said she does not use any iodine based products, so I was relieved. She once again went over the procedure, handed me an aftercare sheet and went over it more thoroughly, told me of the risks and so on. Time to get down to the nitty gritty.
I went in the room and she set everything up. She told me to go ahead and take my shirts and bra off because she needed to mark me. I was a lot more comfortable about being half nude in front of her this time and she was talkative about everything, so it relieved me a lot more. She took some ink and a toothpick and she told me to relax with my arms to the side. She marked entry, exit, and her at the angle things would be at. She let me look at the marks in a mirror and I gave her the go ahead. She told me to lay back and relax the best that I could. She said that after I was clamped and ready to go, she was going to tell me to take a big breath in through my nose and a big breath out through my mouth and then the needle would penetrate, followed by the jewelry. Spiderlilly had a mask, gloves and the whole nine yards on and I felt really safe in her hands. She asked me if I was nervous or scared and if I was ok. I told her that I was more nervous and scared about being naked in front of a complete stranger than getting my nipples pierced. She told me that she was a mother and has been a piercer for about nine years, so she has seen a lot of things and I had nothing to be worried about, this was nothing... She asked me if I was ok for her to keep going and I told her to go ahead. At this point she clamped my left nipple and got it just right. She told me that a lot more women find the clamp more uncomfortable than the actual piercing, but since I was going at a 10 gauge she wasn't sure which I would find more painful. To be quite honest, the clamp felt good. She told me that she was ready for the piercing and asked if I was. I told her yes to go ahead. She said, "OK sweetie, deep breath in your nose and followed by one out of your nose." I did so and the needle penetrated. This was the yuckiest sounding piercing I have ever had of all of mine. It sounded like this rather large needle was going through about 1,000 layers of cartilage. The actual piercing hurt, but not as badly as I had expected, the sound was a lo t worse. YUCK! She placed some gauze around my new piercing to stop the blood from running if I started to bleed.
As she moved over to the right breast she was asking me if I was ok and telling me that a lot of people find the second nipple to be a lot more uncomfortable than the first because it sort of catches the off guard. I was like yeah, whatever, I just hoped that it did not sound like the first nipple, because that was terrible!!! She clamped my right nipple and got everything all lined up and she asked me if it was ok to go ahead and if I was ready. I told her yes, I was ready and to go ahead. She told me the same thing, "In though your nose and out through your mouth." As I exhaled the needle penetrated my right nipple. There was no icky sound this time, but there was a lot more pain. About the best that I can explain is that someone took a HUGE burning hot or burning cold needle and slid it through my nipple. She asked me if I was ok and how that felt in comparison to the other. I told her that it hurt more, but I was relieved that there was no sound.
Spiderlilly told me to lay there for a minute while she put some gauze on the my right nipple while and then started to clean up her area. She came back and taped some fresh gauze very loosely on my breasts because I told her that I was not from the area and I was going to be heading back on a trip that night and I didn't have anything else with me. She told me that I could sit up, but for me not to get up because there was a possibility that I would pass out. She handed me a mirror and showed me my new piercings. They looked so damn good. I was so proud of them and of myself. She told me that I was a "bad bitch for getting them done at a 10." That, of course, made me even happier. She underlined some things on my aftercare sheet and went over things one more time. I would have to say that this was the most thorough explanation that someone had ever given me. She gave me some Provon soap, I paid her, and I was on my way.
I am wearing these new barbells like badges of honor. Through piercing, I have conquered a hurdle that I had been stuck at for years and I have never been more proud of myself. I am still on the long road to recovery from both the piercing and the abuse, but you have to start somewhere and I have.
Today my nipples are a little tender, but nothing that is unbearable. A lot of my right breast is bruised, but it should be better in a little while.