I had been thinking about it for a while, not really mentioning it to anyone but myself. I had my nipples pierced before, but took them out due to the fact that one was starting to migrate. I'm a stickler for symmetry so I had to remove both.
At A Glance Author anonymous When It just happened Artist Myself Location Canada When my tax return finally came back I had no excuse not to. I went onto BMEShop and placed my order; 2 8g needles, 2 10g CuBBs, and a set of slotted penningtons. I was going to pierce my own nipples.
I waited anxiously every day until the mail came. 5 days after sending out the money order, it was there. I ran upstairs and tore open the manilla envelope and just stared.
Those needles looked pretty big compared to the 12g I was used to getting pierced with. The only thing that kept me going was the idea of having two beautiful rings in my nipples again.
That night I went out for coffee with a friend, and that was all I could think about. I was drifting in and out of the conversation so much that he just looked at me and said, "Just go do it. Do it now before you start to over think it." After that, I was gone. I drove home like a madwoman determined that when I got home I was going to do it.
I walked through the front door, and immediately went upstairs into my bedroom to get all of my tools together and proceeded into the bathroom. I laid everything out on a metal tray covered in paper towel and removed my shirt and bra. I just stood there looking at myself in the mirror. I couldn't believe I was going to do this.
I put on my gloves, grabbed my anti-bacterial soap, and started to wash myself. I went to what some people would call great extremes making sure that not only was I clean, but there was little to no chance for any type of cross-contamination. I was all washed up, had taken the iodine to myself, and marked the entry and exit points. I grabbed the clamps and attempted to clamp myself. This was no easy task. It's pretty awkward trying to clamp your own nipple. After about 5 minutes of clamping and removing, I had finally gotten it right.
I grabbed the needle and held it towards my nipple. It was now or never. As I sat there I had the brief thought, "Can I actually go through with this?". Then, without any further hesitation, I did it. I was sitting there with an 8 gauge needle through my left nipple. I looked down with a huge idiotic grin on my face. After a couple of seconds I came to and grabbed the circular barbell out of it's package, threaded it through, and removed the clamps.
Perfect. Absolutely perfect. I had wanted to pierce them a little farther back than the norm so I could get a set of verticals when these were healed. It was sitting just in front of my areola just as I wanted. At this point my nipple was slightly throbbing, but it was bearable. Definitely not as bad as the first time I had them done. Not even a drop of blood.
After I shook myself out of my daze, I grabbed the orange juice I had been drinking earlier and took a big sip. I didn't need myself passing out at this point!
I cleaned, marked, and clamped my other nipple and got out the second needle. This time there was no hesitation whatsoever. In and out in a matter of seconds. As I removed the clamps blood started to slowly trickle out. No big deal I thought to myself. But as I started to clean myself up a bit, it started to bleed a little more. After about 15 minutes I had finished bleeding.
I stood there in front of the mirror once more, the only difference this time were the two shiny pieces of metal resting on my nipples. To my eyes, they were stunning. I had did this to myself. Altered my own body with my own two hands. I was in complete and utter amazement that I had actually gone through with it.
I gathered all of my materials and put them in a container to dispose of the next day at the local studio, and headed off to bed. At this point I wasn't really in too much pain, purely because of the amount of adrenaline rushing through my body. I headed off to bed and had one of the best nights sleep I ever remember having.
When I woke up the next morning I headed to the shower to clean myself. When I took off my shirt I had quite the surprise. There was crusted blood all over myself and my shirt and there was a lot of bruising. I grabbed my pre-mixed salt water solution, soaked a Q-Tip in it, and gently started to clean everything off. Not only was this very time consuming, but it was painful. Very painful. After about half an hour I had them both cleaned up and jumped in the shower.
The next two weeks were pretty easy. I've always taken the minimal approach to cleaning my piercings. Saltwater soaks two times a day, and a gentle wash in the shower.
It's now been three weeks and everything's going great. No more pain, a little crust once in a while, and they look great. In about 3 more months I'm going to do my long awaited verticals and complete everything.
Disclaimer:
I decided to pierce myself because it makes me appreciate the modification that much more. Just to know the simple fact that I did this to myself. When seeking any sort of modification it is always best to go to a professional. They have the training and knowledge most don't have.